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Rock Bottom Motivation

Just the other day when I joined Cross Fit, I started a conversation with one of the members. I was asked what I did for a living and replied, "Well I was a teacher but I have recently decided to go in a different direction." Then, she asked where I was living, which I replied with the whole spiel about how my apartment was broken into and now currently live with my parents. And finally, the dreaded question of whether I had a boyfriend or not was asked. The reply being a "sigh" followed with a "no". And then she said, "Wow, so you're like completely starting over."

Is it safe to say I've hit rock bottom? I mean maybe not like the bottom of a trench, but definitely sea floor level. There are two emotions that I feel based on my current state; terrified and liberated. Terrified that I may not get the opportunity to succeed in a new profession, and liberated that I followed through with my plans rather than just staying comfortable and complacent. What surprises me most is that despite current conditions, I have more motivation than ever. I get up in the mornings ready to sweat puddles at cross fit, I find DIY projects and hobbies to stay challenged and busy with, and I have been applying for jobs every chance I get. I mean hey, I even started a blog! I suppose that after I hit rock bottom, I took a good look around and immediately started problem-solving ways I could get myself back to the surface. Hence the lesson that sometimes you need to experience loss and disappointment to get the push you need to persevere through the hard times so you can go back to being the buoy rather than the anchor. *~H.B.~*